Trying to find some music to free myself from my day and get into my online course and doing some writing, I inadvertently brought myself to tears.
Truthfully, I’ve been on the brink most of the week. A combination of many stressors – topped off with the 10 to 12 hour days I’ve been working nearly every weekday so far this year – has had me feeling at my limit.
I opened up my iTunes and was poking from one playlist to another, trying out some new Genius mixes which turned out far from it, and landed on my playlist of covers I named “Angst For a Bad Day”.
Starting out originally with that in mind, the playlist has grown as I’ve found new covers or just found ways to fit in ones I already had. It has taken on it’s own life and ranges from Korn covering Pink Floyd to Lissie covering Danzig.
Instead of starting at the beginning – “A.D.I.D.A.S” by Killer Mike & Big Boi, a cover of Korn – I jumped to the middle of the playlist and started with Peter Gabriel.
Peter Gabriel covering the late David Bowie.
One line, in particular, struck me the most tonight.
“Standing by the wall…”
Whether we’re alone or with ones we love or in a crowd of strangers, we’re all standing by the wall.
We’re all trying to hold back something which we know is inevitable.
A email sent by a coworker and friend to the whole office kind of sums things up, I think:
I just got off the phone with a reviewing nurse. She opened up on how cancer has touched her life and what her experiences have been. Something she said really resonated with me and I wanted to share. “I am so grateful for everyone who works in Oncology, the work you guys do is very difficult and I don’t know how you do it, but I just know that I am so thankful for anyone who does, you touch people’s lives and it makes a difference.” As we go about our day to day, please remember
*YOU* make a difference.
What kind of hero will you be tomorrow?